The Sudden Invasion of Paranoia and Worry

It's one of those situations where you don't even know how to react. My brain was trying to soak it in, but it simply couldn't.

Elder Gibby's mom texted me Friday night and told me that on Thursday, Elder Gibby had gone to the hospital and was pretty sick.

When your boyfriend is really sick and is in another country on a mission, what exactly are you supposed to do?!

I'm pretty sure this is what was happening in my head:
Emotions: Knock knoooock! We have a good amount of Paranoia and a heaping dose of Worry to deliver!

Brain: Maybe if I'm quiet enough they'll go away... I'll just think about puppies right now!

Emotions: Helloooo? I know you're there!

(After a good half hour, realization finally dawns on Chanel).

(Emotions break down the front door and dump their delivery in the foyer).
Emotions: Alright Paranoia and Worry, give it all you've got!
Paranoia and Worry: CHAAAARGE!

Brain: Nooo! NOO! GAH I JUST NEED TO STAY POSITIVE N' STUFF. PUPPIES, PUPPIES! AHHHHH!!
(Brain is successfully invaded by Paranoia and Worry).

So it's safe to assume that yes, I was paranoid, and yes, I was extremely worried.

He was in medical care and on bed rest for three days. I just wanted to know that my favorite boy was doing okay :(

So later that night I was praying really hard for Elder Gibby and his family. While I was praying, a scripture popped into my head. That's never happened to me before, so I pounced on the opportunity. It was 1 John 4:16: 
"And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us."

It might seem silly that that verse made me feel better because it doesn't seem to do with anything, but it did. It made me think about how personal God's love is for each of us. He loves us so much, cares for us individually, and will help us with anything because He's always here for us. I decided to read the whole chapter, and it's a good chapter! It's about love. It probably wouldn't mean much to anyone else, but I was glad that I read it when I did :)

His mom let me know that I might not get an e-mail this week, which completely and totally makes sense. He needed all the rest he could get so he could get better!

Anyway, about a month ago, Elder Gibby told me he sent me a letter, and right after that I checked the mail EVERY DAY. After 3 weeks, I had started to give up, since he had already received the letter I sent him shortly after. So then I checked the mail like every two days instead. I didn't get a chance to check the mail on Saturday, so yesterday I went to the mailbox, AAAAAAND... Nothing. Nah I'm just pulling your leg! I got the letterrrr! YAYAYAY! :D

So then I was TOTALLY fine going without an e-mail for a week! This letter would definitely make up for it :) I restrained myself from reading it right away though. SO DIFFICULT. The struggle was real! 
(That was for you. You know who you are ;))

And guess what?! I GOT AN E-MAIL TODAY ANYWAY!! Yaaaay! So I'm saving this letter for later this week for a little pick-me-up! :) Gah. SO HAPPY! BLERGURGLURNUURR!!! (That's one of my happy/excited noises, I guess...)

Seriously, this is me right now as I'm typing this:

Elder Gibby told me he's doing better, just tired. He is LOVING his companion. They get along so well! They sing Disney songs every night before going to bed. Yep, I approve! Disney is the best!!! I'm definitely watching a Disney movie tonight. It's decided!

Man, I'm sooo happy!!! :D I wish I could throw confetti everywhere and make everyone in the world as happy as I am right now!!! :)

(No, really, I'm being completely serious!)

And next week we'll be out of the 800s! AHHHHHH! Okay, okay. I'll calm down.

In a couple hours.

:)

805 Days Left! :)